Yesterday I made a huge sign for my bedroom wall. I thought I made it with the thought of Kyle and I in mind. I am so blessed to be married to him. But I woke up with a different meaning in mind.
You know how when you have been working and planning and hoping for some HUGE thing for a VERY LONG TIME ...and it doesn't happen... yet... and it becomes this far away dream.
Almost like it is not real?
I have been feeling that way.
I want a big family.
I love with my whole being my two daughters. We have been promised through a blessing with more Children. So I know that dream of a large family will happen. Its just hard to wait. :)
We are ready. We have enough space in the car, and a crib, empty, just waiting happily to be filled.
Last night, I had the most amazing dream. It was fabulous.
We had 4 children. My sweet Emma and My darling Halie. We were at church and I was holding our son Kase. I wasn't really listening to the lesson. Just admiring the way my son was snug in my lap. I enjoyed his toes and his eyes and his adorable suit. The sister over the nursery came and told me that my daughter needed me. It was so exciting. I picked up our precious Kase and walked into where Annabelle waited for me. She was struggling in nursery. A new place. I took her by the hand.
We went out and sat in the green grass. We played a game to help calm her. The sun was so bright and my heart was so full. I love these children. Annabelle came and sat on my lap. We sat happily in the sunshine. It was perfect.
I woke up with the sweetest joy in my heart. Peace.
My Father has a plan for me, for Kyle, for my Children.
Then I looked up my lesson for my tiny sunbeams that I teach at church. Do you know what it was titled? Heavenly Father Has a Plan for Me.
Then I happened upon this talk.... The Lord really is talking this morning. I am so grateful.